Friday, May 28, 2010

Great Things Happening!

I only have 10 minutes to write a quick post, but I had to share. Yesterday was a great day for me and here is why:
 
We did the blog tour and it went really well. Hopefully those that participated loved it, and those that read the posts felt inspired! I’ll do it again soon.

I got a free pedometer!! I almost bought one the other day, but didn’t end up buying it . And now I have one!! Woo Hoo!

I got a free car wash! Rett from work was so kind and washed our team’s cars. Wow, what a great guy and he was so speedy!! Now I just need to clean the inside (bad!).

I wore a pair of shorts that I haven’t been able to wear for about a year!

I wore a really cute new top that I bought over the weekend that was a size smaller than I’ve been wearing. It’s a top that is way out of my comfort zone usually, but I was brave. At one point during the day I was thinking that so and so hadn’t noticed it, and the thought that followed that was – “Does it matter?”. What was so cool about that was it was a totally unconscious thought, so that means my head is turning around!!

I went for a walk/jog with Willow by myself and pushed myself. It felt great and we did two miles (which I know thanks to my pedometer). And Willow did really good at not running all around me and pulling on the leash.

I weighed in and lost 4.4lbs and hit 30.4lbs lost!! This is really big for me. I’m about to break the bearer of 230 where I usually get stuck. Not this time, I’m busting through it!

I got some new shoes for hiking, and I plan to wear them out this summer!

And last but not least, I got to spend the evening with my hubby and that was really fun!!
 
Lots of good things, I just had to share! Someone asked me today why I struggle so bad sometimes? I don’t really know. I think I just let my head get in my way. But right now, I’m not struggling at all and I plan to just keep on rockin’ it!! I think the biggest thing for me is to make sure not to compare myself to others and their success, or to compare my success to theirs. This isn’t a contest, we are all running at our own pace and that’s as it should be. As my WW leader, Kris, says – better your own best and encourage others to do the same. So that’s my encouragement to you – Better your best!
 
I’m headed out of town for the weekend, and will be back on Monday. Have a great Memorial day and I look forward to catching up on all my favorite blogs – and maybe finding a few new ones to follow.
 
One last thing, I’m thinking of doing a contest on my 100th post (as I am losing 100lbs), which is coming up in about 7 posts. I’m going to do a drawing for a blog makeover. I have a really fun program I use from Stampin’ Up! to design my blog backgrounds and headers, and I would love to make one for you! So, I will let you know when it is my 100th post, and on that day if you leave me a comment then your name will go in the drawing. My disclaimer is this: I do it for fun, I am not a professional, but I hope we’ll create a look that is personalized to you and that you’ll love!
 
Thanks for stopping by, have a great weekend!
 
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Thursday, May 27, 2010

Blog Tour!


My before picture - taken at the very end of December 2009.


My most current after picture. I don't love this shirt on me, but I can really see my weight loss in my face and stomach. Sorry about the demon eyes!! :)  


I've lost 26lbs since I began on January 4, 2010 (although I weigh in tonight and I think I've lost maybe 3 more). I am currently following the Weight Watchers plan. I am not following an exercise plan right now. But I am hiking once a week, doing some walking and light jogging, and trying different work out videos. My favorite snack would be string cheese and fruit probably. Right now I'm also kind of digging the baked Cheetos. Probably shouldn't but it just hits the spot and feels naughty, when really it's not too bad in the calorie department. Yum!

The biggest life lesson I have learned on my journey so far is forgiveness. This applies to weight loss on so many levels. There is the short term - forgiving myself for messing up, for not exercising, for binging, etc. I think that can be one of my biggest stumbling blocks sometimes. I come down so hard on myself, that it can be hard to get back up and keep going. But I am learning to forgive those mistakes. To take precautions so they don't happen, and to acknowledge when they do - but then move on! Forgiveness is also about the past. I'm learning to forgive myself for getting to this place again. That didn't happen overnight, it happened one bite at a time for 15 years, getting over it isn't going to happen right away either. And I'm okay with that, I know it's a process and a journey. There is also the matter of forgiving those that hurt me along the way. Things that I have pent up over the years and have let poison me. As I am able to forgive them, it's like I can literally feel the weight come off my shoulders (and my butt, thighs, arms, etc!).

I think the biggest strength I've discovered in myself on my journey is that I can do hard things. I use to know that, and do hard things all the time. But several years ago, I just stopped trying. Then it wasn't that I stopped trying, but that "I am weak, lazy, and can't do it". But I am learning that I CAN do it! These are hard things, and take a strong person to do them. I am a strong person!

My toughest struggle has been my mental blocks. Which I think stems from the forgiveness I was talking about. What will happen is I'll mess up, have a bad eating day. And I'll either rationalize it into a worse eating day, or beat myself up over it so much that I eat more anyway! Then, I'm angry, I'm hurt, I'm frustrated. All those feelings do not make you want to jump up the next morning and say "Gee, I think I'll eat really healthy today". So then you have a 2nd bad day, and it snowballs. Usually for about a week or two. Then I finally realize, "What am I doing!". And then comes the thinking game. I'm going to think about ALL my mistakes, and what I did wrong, and how I got here, how depressed I am, and blah blah blah. I usually stay in this state for a month or so. Then finally one day, I just randomly wake up and it's the day! The day I start eating healthy, which usually carries on anywhere from 4 weeks - 3 months. I haven't been able to get rid of this cycle yet, but I am recognizing it and hoping to shorten it each time until it is non-existent.

Who is my biggest supporter? Mike, hands down, Mike! He is the best husband and really supports me in being healthy. He encourages me to exercise, to eat right (even when maybe he doesn't want to), and to love myself. He always makes me feel beautiful and that he loves me no matter what size I am. The couple of times I have considered canceling WW for money reasons, he has told me no. We will find the money somewhere else. I love this man with all my heart and thank God everyday that I was lucky enough to get him!

When I reach my goal weight what will I do then? Go to Disneyland! J/K I will keep going! Hopefully by that time we will be super active, doing lots of biking, hiking, snow shoeing, snow boarding, camping, backpacking, rock climbing, running, etc. At that time I hope that our debt will all be paid off and we'll be able to start doing all the tests in fertility so that we can grow our little family. We desperately want children, and losing the weight is the first step. Maybe someday I'll post more on that and why it's a problem.

I wish someone had told me when I began to love myself for who I am NOW. Don't love just the future you, appreciate the goodness in your heart now. Because ultimately when you lose the weight, you are still that person, just in a smaller body. And losing weight when you love yourself is much easier then losing it when you don't. I've not mastered this, I still work on it every day. But I can tell you that the days I eat really well and exercise - it's not because of my "strong willpower". It's because on those days I am feeling grateful to be me. I also wish someone had told me to start a weight loss blog a LONG time ago. That has really been key for me this time around. And I know that there won't be another time around. This is it. I am going to hit my goal and stay there and enjoy life to the fullest along the way. The journaling, giving of support to other bloggers, and receiving of support from other bloggers and my family from my blog has been so amazing and such a strength to me.

My last thought and words of wisdom - DON'T STOP!!! Even if you have a bad day, get up the next day and try again.

The next blog on our tour is Tami's blog at A Battle Worth Living. Thanks for stopping by and enjoy the tour!!
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Wednesday, May 26, 2010

Almost forgot!

Tomorrow is our Blog Tour, and I almost forgot!! Ha, it's been a busy week! But... thank goodness that a couple people posted about it and reminded me! Thanks! That would have been embarrassing! :) For those participating in the tour, here is a little button I made for us, hope you like it. I'm posting it here, and then also sending it to you in e-mail. Put it at the top of your post. See everyone tomorrow.
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Tuesday, May 25, 2010

My New Favorite Song!

Thank you to Robin (whose birthday is today, Happy Birthday beautiful! She is one of my demonstrators and very talented! If you want some beautiful card ideas, stop by her blog!) for introducing me to this amazing song!! I love it and I think you will too. It has such a great message! Especially for those of us who may have spent too long letting ourselves waste away in our fears, and our pain, and our insecurities, and let's face it... our fat. I know that I have let too many years, good years - years that could have had so much in them, go by. I don't regret the lessons I've learned. I know that all experience is good, when we learn and grow from it. And that's what I choose to do, learn and grow from the last 15 years of not treating myself well. Of detesting myself, my actions, and my body. I don't anymore, I don't detest myself or my body. I don't know if I'm ready to say that I love my body, but I definitley recognize that one, it's a gift from God, and therefore good! And two, it is a temple to my soul, which deserves my respect. I hope someday to be able to say, I love my body. Sometimes I get frustrated with my actions, but ultimately, I know I am a strong woman, and I can overcome hard things. I look forward to the next 50-60 years of life and hope they are filled with joy, trials to learn from, faith in god, and zeal for life! I'm turning up the music and am going to dance!



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Monday, May 24, 2010

Beautiful Blogger Award



I feel honored that I received this award not only once, but twice this week!! Once from Anne over at Smaller Fun Pants (thanks Anne for your kind words!!) and once from Lesia at Here we go... Hold on tight! (Thanks to you too Lesia, you're such a great friend!) So the rules of this award, give it to 7 people, and tell you 7 things about me you didn't know. Which means... 14 of each?! Prepare yourself for a long post! :D Let's get started!

First, I would like to pass this award on to the following people (to these 14 people, don't forget to post this button on your blog, give it to 7 people, and tell us 7 things about you that we don't know):

1. Lily from Lily Fluffbottom. I've just met Lily, but I think we have a lot in common. She is newer to the blogging world and overcoming her fear of putting herself out there! I look forward to getting to know her better and to cheering her on!

2. Is for my sister-in-law at Dandelion Design. She is a mother, quilter, friend, sister, daughter, and runner. She is an AMAZING woman and I totally look up to her! If you are a crafter, check out her blog to see her quilts! And if you like to hear the musings of a intensely interesting person, go check her out! Oh, and most of all, she is beautiful!

3. Tami from A Battle Worth Winning. Tami's blog started out as a blog about depression and has just added her battle against the bulge as well. Tami lives down the street from me and is such a great friend! She is one of the most giving people I know and I dream of being like her when I grow up. She is also a fantastic driver! I would take a guess that most people who deal with being overweight also deal with depression. If that is the case for you check out her blog. You'll find it highly motivating and positive!

4. Lisa at In Weigh Over My Head. She is a beautiful woman, with a beautiful soul inside! She has been working hard at overcoming her set backs and I have no doubt she'll get there!

5. Lady of the House from It's Time. This friend is an awesome mom and does a lot for everyone around her. I'm sure glad she's decided It's time to take care of herself! She is a beautiful blogger for sure!

6. Traci from Traci's Treasures. Traci is another new friend, and I truly enjoy reading her blog! She has lost some serious weight and looks fantastic! She is overcoming some health challenges and I admire her strength!

7. Holly from Perseverance Within Me. Holly is totally kicking butt at her weight loss!! She definitely does have a lot of perseverance and it shows!!

8. Liana from Vegan Ana. The best-est of friends, that who this girl is! Check out her blog for a fun dietary option. She has always been beautiful to me, and always will be!

9. Tori from A Journey to a New Me. Tori has set some fantastic weekly goals and I know she'll do it. We are new blog friends, so I don't know her very well yet, but I look forward to learning more about this beautiful blogger!

10. My cousin Sarah from Stochastically Sarah. She is SOOOOO strong! We have been re-united lately through our blogs and I love that! She is one tough cookie and I know she can handle anything that comes her way.

11. Mary from A Merry Life. This chick-a-dee just moved across country by herself! She has an adventure's spirit and nothing is going to stop her!

12. Jamie from Healing the Fat from the Inside Out. I'm new to Jamie's blog, but I admire her determination to better her life!

13. Laura from Mama's Fit Life. I'm new to Laura's blog as well but look forward to getting to know her. In the few posts I have read I definitely see a Fit Mama!

and last, but not least...

14. Scale Junkie from Scale Junkie. If you are not familiar with this site you need to go. She has started a fantastic challenge that is free and open to anyone. It's a great way to meet new people and to stay connected. Thank you for providing such a forum for us on this weight loss journey!!

Okay, now for 14 things about me that you may or may not know:


1. I'm a total fanatic when it comes to the TV show Buffy the Vampire Slayer. I honestly couldn't tell you how many times I've watched the series. Pathetic, I know.




2. I lived in Alaska for 18 months serving a mission for the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. As such, I have been ice fishing with Eskimos! 


3. I owned my own motorcycle for about 2 1/2 months. 
4. I'm the only girl and the baby in my family - shocking I know! 
5. For 10 1/2 months I slept on a blow up mattress. 
6. I am a fan of net work marketing. I have done bra parties (now that's a party!), make-up parties, chocolate parties, nutritional supplement parties, and cooking shows. Although not actively doing parties (except for cooking shows), I still sell all these items. Someday I plan to get very rich doing this. :)
7. I met my husband the day after I got home from my mission, we dated for 2 1/2 months, were engaged for 2 1/2 months, and married after knowing each other for 5 short months.


8. I have pet a real live moose. On the antler. Really.
9. I had a 45lb weight dropped on my knuckle in high school, luckily it had the rubber padding on it so it didn't crush it, just cracked it.
10. I'm a cautious driver (That's for you Tami!). Hasn't always been so... when I was 20 I was put on probation for too many speeding tickets.
11. Continuing on #10, I received two tickets with in 30 minutes of each other. Exactly. The first one I laughed, the 2nd I cried.
12. We taught willow to give kisses when she catches your fingers in her teeth on accident. Sometimes I pretend to be hurt just to get kisses.
13. When we get pizza and wings from Domino's, I eat all of the wings by myself, plus about 3-4 slices of pizza. Yum! Yes, there is a reason my butt is the size it is.
14. I'm a Hannah Montana fan. I know I just lost you're respect... but it had to be said. I do not like all the dolls, clothes, and all that crap. Just the show, and the movie was cute. And I love her song The Climb! FANTASTIC words, very motivating, you should listen to it!

Whew.... now I need a nap!!

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Sunday, May 23, 2010

Do You Believe?

I think one of the hardest parts about losing weight, is believing that I can do it. It's something that I go back and forth on. I do well for a while, then not so good, then back and forth again and again. Right now I'm on the up swing, and I'm going to ride it for all it's worth! I think it must stem from childhood. Little children have no fear, no self doubts, no regrets. They believe they can do anything, and they go for it. It must be the older we get, our experiences, things people say, things we say to ourselves, they start to become not just a perspective, but reality. So now, in a moment of self improvement it becomes our job to challenge those "realities" and figure out who we really are. I guess as the good scriptures say, to become childlike again.

Why is this such a hard thing for us to do, to believe in ourselves?

I've been evaluating my 100lb weight loss goal in 2010, and.... I just don't know. I'm not ready to say it won't happen, but I would be lying if I didn't say I was worried. I still want to achieve it and know that I can!! However I don't know if it will happen all in 2010. So now I'm at the point do I alter my goal for the year so that I can achieve it, or do I continue to strive for it in 2010? At this point if I were not to lose any more weight in May (which I will have a good weight loss this week but it won't be the 13lbs for the month I was hoping for) then I would have to lose about 10lbs each month from June - Dec. I just don't think that's being realistic. I just haven't been losing that fast (however I have been learning a LOT about myself, so I do not really look at this as a downfall), and I know the more weight I lose the slower it will come off. I want to have a goal that is a stretch but doable. Is that beyond doable at this point? Should I adjust it? I just don't know.

What do you think?

Today I sent out the instructions to those that signed up to do the blog tour. The Tour will be on Thursday, May 27. Make sure to stop by and read, and then follow each of the links! I expect it will be very inspiring!!!!
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Saturday, May 22, 2010

Outdoor Adventure Number 2 for 2010!

I have a group of ladies that I walk with and we decided to go hiking once a week. I bought this awesome book from Costco called 60 Hikes Within 60 Miles. It's awesome! It gives you all kinds of information about the different hikes and breaks them down in different ways so you can find the right hike for you. So we decided to hike to The Living Room. When you get to the end, it's on a hillside that shows you a full view of the Salt Lake Valley. There are lots of boulders and they are set up as couches and coffee tables. Too fun! Although we didn't make it to the top, we probably went about a mile up and then back. For not having hiked in who knows how long, I think we did really good!! We'll go again this week somewhere different. I do plan to hike it again this summer, I want to get to the Living Room!!

Here we all are. I'm in front, Liana is to my right, Tami is to my Left, and Rosie is peeking out from behind.

So the book told us it was an "easy" hike... the book was wrong. Check out these hills!




These are some of the pretty flowers we saw along the way. I just LOVE Spring!


And although we didn't get to the top, we still got a great view!






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Fat to Fit.... Join Up!

I came across a similar blog to the HYC one. It's also a way more high tech way of doing my blog tour, previously mentioned about 4-5 posts down. I am still going to do that by the way, we about about 11 people, but are going to move forward. I'll be putting it together on Sunday, so if I have any last takers, e-mail me fast!!

(The rest of this post is copied from Diminishing Lucy, thanks Lucy!)

If you want to share, if you want more followers, if you want inspiration and support, join in? So, if you have a diet/weightloss/healthy eating/exercise/fitness post that you want to share, come and play? It is SO easy, I promise:

1.Follow Lucy's and my blog. (if you haven't already done so).
2.Grab the "Fat to Fit" button/code (you'll have to go to Lucy's to get the code, I don't know how to do it on here yet. Someone teach me) from below and post it on the sidebar of your blog, or within your diet/weightloss post:



3.Add the URL to your diet/weightloss/healthy eating/exercise/fitness post POST in the Linky below (not your homepage: the actual post)
4. Copy the blog hop code from below into your post too.....then you are also hosting the exact same blog hop link list.....and you will get loads of extra followers too!
5. Follow at least one other blogger.....share the love, and comment!
6. The blog hop list will open every Thursday and will be open all week.
7. A new and fresh link list will open every Thursday. (And then you can link up again with another diet/weightloss/healthy eating/exercise/fitness post.)
8. Open to any blog, any country, just as long as the post content is diet/weightloss/healthy eating/exercise/fitness related.

I cannot wait to read all your posts!



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Thursday, May 20, 2010

10 Percent and What I've Learned

When doing Weight Watchers they have you set mini goals. First 5% of your weight, then 10%, and then I think you pick your goal weight. I wouldn't know, I've never been there before... until tonight! That's right, tonight with my 0.6lb loss I hit my 10% goal. I'll be honest, I had hoped that I would be much farther along by mid May, but at the same time I am ecstatic about my progress. Kris, my Weight Watchers leader, always ask people when they hit their 10% either what they've learned, or what they've changed to get there. I thought about it all day because I hoped I would do it. So I thought I would share all the things that came to mind over the day.

It's okay to take time for me.

Tracking is very important!!

The Scout motto of being prepared - also applies to weight loss.

I love to plan menus, make a list, and grocery shop.

Tracking is very important!!

I can do hard things!

Journaling is a very important part of my progress. I realized that my "journal", meaning my blog, is really what has made the biggest difference for me. It allows me an outlet to get feelings off my chest - good or bad. It's a place I feel safe and supported. And it's an avenue for me to be able to help others.

I have a WONDERFUL husband that is very very very supportive! I am madly and totally in love with him!!

Tracking is very important!!

I need to accept myself (and others) for what I am, and forgive myself for what I'm not. (More on this later)

I make mistakes, and that's okay.

There are patterns to my weight loss. My body likes to hold on to the weight over a couple of weeks and then I have a big drop. So even though my drop of .6 is a little disappointing considering all the exercise I did, it's okay. I plan to be very on point this next week, and I know it will be a great loss. And if it doesn't happen next week, it will come the next!

When I plan yummy dinners, it's easier to eat at home.

And the number one thing... I'm worth it!!!


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Good Morning!!

Okay, here is my post for my award. This very well may be the bravest (and craziest?) thing I've ever done.






Ahhh.... this is MUCH better!! :)





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Wednesday, May 19, 2010

My First Award... Thank you!!!

One of my favorite parts about having a blog... meeting new people! I have made lots of new friends, and I love that we are all focusing on bettering our lives by getting healthy physically and mentally. One of my new friend Karen from Muffin Fixation, gave me this oh-so-presigious award, my first award!! Yeah!!



As with most awards, it came with some rules:
1. Get really excited that you got the coolest award EVER! Done & done!!!
2. Choose ONE of the following options of accepting the OMB award:
(a) Get really drunk and blog for 15 minutes straight, or for as long as you can focus.
(b) Write about your most embarrassing moment.
(c) Write a “Soundtrack of your childhood” post.
(d) Make your next blog a ‘vlog’/video blog. Basically, you’re talking to the camera about whatever.
(e) Take a picture of yourself first thing in the morning, before you do anything else (hair, makeup, etc) and post it. Yes, that's right, I'm going to do this! Watch for my post tomorrow morning, you'll get the biggest kick out of my hair!
3. Pass this award onto at least 3, but preferably more, awesome bloggers as yourself. Don’t forget to tell them.

I'm happy to pass this on to the following bloggers who make my day better every time I read their blog!!

Quay @ The Fat and Thin of It! - If you haven't read her blog, head over there as her last post was hilarious!!! You won't be sorry!!! She always keeps me laughing!
Anne @ Smaller Fun Pants - I love her blog because I just really relate to a lot of things she posts. And she writes long posts like me, so that makes me happy!
Julie @ My Weight Loss Journey - This girl works her butt off (literally) in the gym and in exercise. When it comes to exercise, she is my hero!!

Thanks Karen for thinking of me!!!! *Big Grin*

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Tuesday, May 18, 2010

Giving Up Control

**If you have a weight loss blog and didn't read my blog tour post, make sure and go read it! It's three down**

So this is Willow. This is Willow's ball, we call it "ball" (original, I know). As I was playing with her tonight, I kind of had an "a-ha" moment. We are teaching her to bring her ball and put it in your hand with out fighting over it. This is quite challenging. She loves to play tug-a-war. And she'll come up and bump the ball against your hand, but then if you try and take it she'll dance just out of reach. See video.



Notice how she desperately wants Mike to have the ball so he can throw it for her, but at the same time, she just can't give it up to him. After a second she gets frustrated and gets up to prance around about it, but she has to come back. Because ultimately he holds what she wants. It's not only the ball she has a hard time giving up... really it's the control! Even though she really and truly wants us to play with her, and she knows that if she drops the ball in our hand, we'll give her what she wants... she can't seem to do it. She'll do it every couple of times, and then it takes her another 5 minutes to do it again. Usually in between that 5 minutes, she throws a "tantrum" where she takes her ball and whips it around and whines and moans about how mean we are to her (it's really quite humorous. I tried to get her to do it on the video, but she wouldn't. She is camera shy).

How alike we are! See, I have my ball, which is my weight. And Losing it is like giving up control and dropping it... sometimes I can do it. And sometimes I can't. And sometimes I need to throw a tantrum about it, and sometimes it's really easy. And although I desperately want to let it go so that it can be thrown (away) there are parts of me clinging to it. Because it's safe, and known, and comforting (in some ways). If I let go and drop it, then I have to trust myself, trust others, trust God. And trusting can be scary (even for a dog apparently!). I just thought it was an interesting analogy. It made me realize that I don't want to push and pull with my own "ball" I want to throw it as far as I can from myself. I want to let down all my inhibitions and let myself be free. I want to be free!

Two more videos for you, just because it was funny. I turned the camera on and she started freaking out. And then I just got her playing by herself, she's so cute! Enjoy!





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A Quiet Leader


 

I find it enlightening that as soon as I released myself from the obligation to work out as one of my “have to do” items, I am able to get out and work out so much easier. As soon as I made it something I want to do, rather than “have to” it became easy. Try it! :D

Last night I asked my friend Liana from Vegan Ana if she wanted to go walking with me. She is in much better shape than I am, and could easily jog/run. But she is so great and walks with me. It’s good though because she keeps up a great pace and it gets my heart pumping. There is a park/rec-center by her house, and it has a trail that runs around the entire park that is about 1.2 miles. We walked it once and I was feeling pretty good so we decided to walk it again. I decided I wanted to do some jogging. She had her iPod with a stop watch so we gave it a go. We would jog for about a minute and then walk for two. She was SOOO patient with me, encouraging me to go farther, or again, but not being pushy.
Liana and I have been best friends since she was in kindergarten and I was in preschool. It’s crazy to think that we have been friends for about 22 years. As you can imagine, we know each other very well. We can finish each other’s sentences; we can have one word conversations, or sometimes even just a look (drives our husbands crazy). She’s seen me at my worst, and (hopefully) at my best. We made it through the elementary years playing with our troll dolls, my little ponies, riding our brother's skate boards and listening to Billy Joel on our walkmans, and playing in the “fort”. We made it through Jr. High laughing a lot, having tons of sleepovers with our little group, riding our bikes everywhere, and “going out” with our first boyfriends (who happened to be twin brothers). We made it through high school by laughing even more, playing musical instruments, singing in choirs, being on stage crew (yes we were those kind of girls – in other words… nerds!), stealing each other’s boyfriends, kissing lots of boys, dealing with depression & heartbreak, and other normal teen-age things. Our friendship continues to grow, and for that I am grateful!

After all that, I’m still learning about her. Last night I learned that Liana is a quiet leader. It’s my own fault that I’ve never really known that about her. We had these nick names for each other when we were younger. See, when she wouldn’t do what I told her, I’d call her “Stubborn” and then she’d call me “bossy”. Which really… I was (still am?)SOOOO bossy! So I never really gave her the chance to lead. But last night as we walked/jogged, she coached me through it. Helped me with my breathing, encouraged me when I felt like giving up, nudged me to run a little longer or again, and was really supportive. She didn’t make me feel dumb for being completely out of breath after running for 60 seconds (a little pathetic - I have a long way to go – but I will get there!). And even though she could run circles around me, she didn’t make me feel like I was holding her back.

I just wanted to say a BIG “Thank You” to Liana; it really meant a lot to me that you helped me over this hurdle. I feel like I could go out and try it again. I love you girl!! If you haven’t had a chance to read her new weight loss blog, you should go check it out. She is trying a very interesting eating plan and I know she would love to have you read about it. She is a new blogger, so let’s all support her (as she has supported me)! She will be a guest blogger hopefully this week or next, so watch for that!

Thanks again Liana!!!

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Monday, May 17, 2010

Outdoor Adventure #1 for 2010!

So my friend, Liana, and I were planning to go for a bike ride on Saturday. I was just thinking a nice little one along the Jordan Parkway. Or in the neighborhoods. But noooo, that is not what Liana had in mind. Saturday at noon she says "Let's ride to Antelope Island!"... uh.... dead air. :) She tells me she'll research it and call me back. For those of you not from UT, Antelope island is on the Great Salt Lake. There is a cause way that goes out there and then you can ride around on the island. There are lots of Antelope (hence the name) and buffalo out there. Very fun! Anyway... she calls me back and tells me it's 7 miles to the island, but it's completely flat. And I think to myself, "It's flat, how hard can it be?" so I say yes. Mike's physical therapist told him to exercise, so he decided to come along since it was flat. So we got our stuff together, and headed out.

This is from the island looking back at the valley.

The water from the cause way.

Liana, isn't she a doll?

Yep, that's my hubby!

Well I did pretty good on the way out. I plugged in my current audio book (If you need a good series to read check it out! The Summoning, The Awakening, and The Reckoning. SOO good! It's a teen read, yes, I like them best! Guess I'll never grown up! :D) and away we went. The hardest part was the smell, and my butt. The smell out there is AWFUL in some parts!! Think sewer! YUCK!! But once you get to the part where there is actually water, it gets a little better. The other problem being my butt... on a bicycle seat... a small bicycle seat.... for the first time in two years!! Yes, that's right, this was my first ride in two years. I guess if I'm going to go, go big! :D So I was doing pretty good until we hit about mile 5, and I started getting really tired, out of breath, my butt was KILLING me, and my thighs were burning. Mike asked if I wanted to turn around, and I thought "NO. This is the time to really dig deep and find it within myself to do this". So we kept going! I changed from my book to my "motivated" songs and I was off!

My cheesy "I did it" self-taken picture at the end of the cause way!

Some pictures taken along the way...



Once we got to the end of the cause way, then we decided to go to the visitor center.

These are the antelope we saw on Antelope island!

It was another mile UP HILL!! I did it... most of the way. At the very end my hip flexor started to spasm, so I got down and walked to the top. This part was really hard, not because of the hill, although that was TOUGH, but because of the bugs! I sun burn really easy, so I had put sun screen on, but I forgot the bug spray. They were eating my face off, it was so annoying and painful. When we got to the Visitor Center, we bought bug spray and that was much better.


Some pictures at the Visitor Center....




Well... it was time to head back, and it was downhill from there... sorta. :) The ride back to the cause way was easy. And the cause way had a very slight incline, so now we were going down (a very slight) hill. Mike was a real trooper because we put him in charge of the camera. I wanted proof that we had gone that far, so he took pictures of each mile marker.




Haha, this is what you get when you put a man in charge of the camera, pictures of your butt! :)-





We did it!


As you know, I've really struggled this last month with my belief in myself. I've doubted my abilities, I've challenged my thoughts, I fought off depression, etc. It was a really rough month on top of other things going on. As I rode the last few feet to the car, I was overwhelmed with a feeling of power and gratitude. In that moment I knew that I could (and can) do hard things. I knew that if I put my mind to something, I can accomplish it. I knew that if I really dive in and work hard, I can lose this 100lbs. It may be that it doesn't all come off in 2010, but I am going to do my part in getting there!! It was a GREAT day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Thanks Liana for the idea!! At the end of the ride, we had ridden just over 16 miles. Whew!!!

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