Tuesday, April 16, 2013

Hormones - sheesh!!

I had two appointments today. One was with the Maternal Fetal Medicine Drs for a non stress test (NST) (just keeping an eye on her because of the gestational diabetes) and then my regular appointment. My appointment for the NST was at 9:45am. 

9:40am - Checked in, then sat down to wait. While waiting I was happy to see two friends, one I hadn't seen in a very long time, Peaches, that I worked with at girls camp. And the other from our ward, Liz Johnson. We had a nice visit, until they each were called in. 

10:30am - As I went to sit back down from chatting with Liz, I noticed it was now 10:30. I thought it was weird I'd been waiting so long, so I stopped at the desk to find out if they had forgotten me. The same receptionist told me that the NST rooms were a little backed up, and that she thought I would be getting right in. So I sat back down. 

10:35am

10:40am

10:45am - starting to get really frustrated! It's been an hour!! 

10:50am - Getting mad! 

10:55am - So mad I think I'm going to cry....

11:00am - Tears start leaking out - but I'm trying to hold them back.....

11:05am - Not having luck holding back the tears - full on tears trickling down my face now. I know I need to go talk to the receptionist - but I feel so silly that I'm crying that I don't want to. I am doing everything I can think of to calm down (breath, go to my calm place, drink water, chew gum, blow my nose, laughing at myself, etc.)

11:10am - Get tears under control - until another patient comes and checks in for an NST (I could hear) and gets called back. The flood of tears really starts coming. At this point I have watched the waiting room fill up and empty twice. Still kind of chuckling at myself too - because I just can't control the tears. At all.

11:15am - Think I have it under control enough now to actually go say something. I walk up to the desk and get out "I'm trying to be reasonable.... " and start sobbing! So hard I couldn't even tell her my name. I felt SOO dumb, which just made it that much worse!  So then I'm half laughing, but mostly crying. And the laughing just makes the tears and crying sound much worse! She asked if I checked in - I told her I did - with her. She asked why I didn't come say something. I told her I did after 45 min - to her. One of the other receptionist couldn't find me and I said my appt had been at 9:45am. She was like WHAT! hahaha

Anyway... it turns out somehow my file got put away instead of in the pile to be called. When I asked at 45 min - she didn't check it. She felt really really bad, I could tell it was an honest mistake. They got me back there right away and everything from there went perfect. Emma was squirmy as usual and has a strong heart beat as usual. 

Dang these extra hormones!!! But I've learned my lesson - next time if I feel like I'm going to cry - get up and talk to someone RIGHT then and make sure they locate my file!! :) Don't let it escalate - geez! hahahahahaha


Thursday, April 4, 2013

3rd Trimester and Update

So far - the third trimester has been my favorite by far! Although I have had a cold and a couple of scares, I have had the most energy and been able to do the most! And my good friends Sharon from my ward and her daughter-in -law who I worked with at Brighton Girls Camp threw me a shower for my ward friends. That was so fun and the ladies from the ward really spoiled us! People are so generous!! 

I don't like showers typically. Even my wedding showers - just not a huge fan of being center of attention. I like being the side show. :) Baby showers especially have always been very painful as we've tried to get pregnant through out the years. I pulled up to the house and there were all these pink balloons up and I sighed and thought - I hate showers. But then I looked and read the balloon that said "It's a Girl" and remembered - that's OUR girl that balloon is talking about! And it was like reality slapped me in the face that this shower was for ME and that I am having a baby!! AHHHHHH :D Once I relaxed a bit and found a comfy chair, I really enjoyed the party. We received mostly clothes and they are ALL so darling!! They are now hanging in her closet waiting to be spit up on! ;) 

Because of the energy boost - we've been able to get the nursery cleaned out completely, the crib up (of course Mike did that), and the room mostly set up. There are still a few things to do - like paint he shelves and hang them, and some decorations. I am making the crib skirt, a cover for the bumper to match the quilt my Sister in Law made for us. And the drapes. I also want to make some wall hangings, maybe a baby bag, and a cover for the chair we are using. Obviously some of this will have to be done later. So still some projects to get done. But it does look like a baby is coming and I love that! Willow doesn't so much though - I think all the changes are making her nervous - she peed on our bed the other day for no reason. :( This is going to be fun! 

From here on out we have a lot to do! While I'm working on those projects listed above, Mike is in full swing training mode for his 1/2 Iron Man that is only four weeks away!! WOW!! I'm so proud of all he has done - he has worked so hard. Because it's in St. George I won't be able to go see him, but I will be with him in heart. We do have some family and a friend going with him, so that's good! He needs good cheerleaders!!

Other fun things - I'm starting to actually fill out my bra! Woo hoo! :D That's a first! And my ankles are swelling pretty good most days, if I don't remember to wear compression socks and keep my feet up. And last but not least - I've learned that prunes are a miracle fruit - I won't say anymore than that! ;)

Now for the yucky stuff - mostly just so I have it documented. Read it or not - whatever. Beware - may be too much info for some. :)

About three weeks ago we went in for the last ultrasound with the Research study we are participating in. I was pretty excited because we were getting 3D pics. I know most people think they look creepy - and I'll admit some of them do. But we got two really clear shots of her face and she is so cute! We invited my parents along and they really loved getting to see her.

After my parents left they also did a vaginal ultrasound. They said everything looked fine until she pushed on my stomach, that made the top of my cervix - next to the uterus - start to open. She was concerned about this and sent us over to the midwives to be checked. They did two tests, one was a swab to see if I was leaking amniotic fluid. The other was a digit test to see if I was dilated. I was not prepared for what the digit test meant - so that was not a pleasant experience!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Haha But the good news was I was not dilated. The test for the amniotic fluid - she told us if it came back positive that there was a 50% chance we would deliver within 2 weeks. Luckily it came back within an hour (that was a very scary and emotional hour), and was negative. She did give us a bishop score of my cervix as a 3. The scale goes 0-10 - 10 being ready to deliver. I should be a 0. While this doesn't mean a ton - it's something to watch. They told me to keep an eye on things and if I noticed any changes to let them know. 

Fast forward until last week, I started noticing that it seemed like I was now leaking a fluid. My undewear were consistently wet, and I couldn't quite tell if I was just not doing a good job of holding it in or if this was something else. After a couple of days I decided I wasn't peeing myself and called the Midwives. I wasn't too worried, and figured they would have me come back in to do another swab test. Well - no. They said I am far enough along this could indicate preterm labor and sent me to L&D to be checked. I called Mike, and off we went - again. Sigh. 

We were there for about 3 hours and they checked several things. They monitored Emma most the time - and her heart was just fine. They also monitored for contractions (I didn't feel any, but just in case) and there weren't any. She did an examine and the swab test where they look at the fluid under a micro scope. Also a paper test that tells them right away. Both those came back negative - I was NOT leaking amniotic fluid. Which is good - because if I had been she said I would be admitted to the hospital for the following two weeks and induced at 34 weeks. Although she did say she could see something during the exam, so I wasn't just peeing myself either. That made me feel a little better. They also tested for an infection, and a UTI. Both those also came back negative. So she said it is probably just an increase in discharge and that it's nothing to worry about.

So many adventures!! I can only imagine what the next 7-9 weeks hold for us! Ready or not - here we come!