Sunday, January 20, 2013

Next Chapter....

For the last two and half years I've had the pleasure of serving the Young Women in our ward. A year and half of that I was the 2nd counselor in the presidency. And for just under a year I was the President. Today we were released from these callings. It was kind of a bitter sweet day. I have grown to love these girls so much!!! They truly have such amazing spirits, strong testimonies, and beautiful smiles. I have so many wonderful memories that I'll take away from these years and I'll hold them in my heart forever. 

I've been blessed to have such a peace about this change and to know it is the will of God from the moment I knew about it. It can be so scary letting go of something so big, and at the same time trusting that someone else will now take care of these sweet girls I love so much. I have had a sincere knowledge that whoever was called would be exactly who is needed. Today as we sustained the new presidency my heart was full. The Spirit was strong, and testified to me that this is good. That they will be in very capable and loving hands. And that it's okay to move forward. As I told the girls today - if there is one thing in life that is always constant - it's that change will always come. 

While it's sad to say goodbye to the YW (of course I'll still see them, but you know what I mean) I am excited to move forward and to prepare our home for this little girl and to finally have the calling I've dreamed about for so long - mommy!

Monday, January 7, 2013

I Failed

Have you ever thought that to yourself? Have you ever thought that you failed? I have so many times, I can't even pretend to count them. We all do, it's part of this life. 

Tonight I went with Mike up to walk around the Olympic Oval. It was busy, lots of runners and ice skaters. I was probably the slowest one on the track. I walked one mile in 25 minutes. Slow. But I did it, and only felt like my hip was going to fall off half the time. So I am pretty pleased with that. :D I'm not going to lie, I am petty enough that I had the thought that I wished I had a shirt that says "I'm 20 weeks pregnant". Unless you know me, I don't look pregnant. I just look overweight. And I kept thinking "they probably think this fat girl should get her butt in gear so she won't be fat".  Like I said, petty. 

After I finished I sat on the mats to stretch a little and thought about all the years I've had to lose weight. And all the years that I didn't (or that I did and gained it back). I failed. I wondered if I had known that I was going to get pregnant, would I have been able to do it? Honestly I don't know. But then I thought - does it really matter? And the truth is, it doesn't. The truth is - as cliche as it is - I've only truly failed if I stop starting again. I will keep trying to get healthy. Probably my whole life. Failure is just a chance to learn something about yourself. And hopefully each time it's not the same lesson!

I'm not done learning - not by a long shot!

Bun in the OVEN

I thought it would be a good time for another update. :)

I named this post bun in the oven - heavy emphasis on the OVEN. I am always SO hot. The last two Sundays I've had to get up and leave sacrament because I was feeling faint, and for fear I was sweating through my dress. Everyone else is freezing and I'm wondering when I can go home and take all my clothes off and do snow angels in the back yard. Okay - maybe that's extreme - but still. It's hot. :D

Unfortunately morning sickness seems to have made a small comeback. It's not nearly as bad as it was during the first trimester, but it's enough to be obnoxious. I'm still having lots of acid reflux. Blah - whatever. 

This week I begin walking, I'm looking forward to that and am really hoping it will help. I'm also preparing to jump into the world of making freezer meals - I'm excited about that too. I hope it will make eating healthier easier. 

We had another ultrasound last week. This was the one where they look at all her little body parts and make sure all is good. They were able to see everything they were looking for (organs, spine, face, legs, arms, etc) and she is very healthy and has a really strong heart. She was facing my spine, so we didn't get any great shots of her cute face - hopefully next time. We have one more ultrasound in March with the research study. 

I also had to meet with an OB for a consultation on gestational diabetes. They tested my numbers when we first found out I was pregnant and they came back normal. However, at the time I was on a medication for my Insulin Resistance and PCOS. They had mentioned at some point I would come off that, but no one has mentioned it again. I asked at my last appointment and the midwife said I should consult with a DR. He has taken me off the medication and will have me do the glucose test in a week or so again to see if my numbers are okay with out the medication. I'm really hoping they are - but we shall see.

I think we've decided on a look for the nursery, love it!! Check it out! 

Well that's all for now - I'll post again once we test my numbers and get the results back.