Saturday, August 14, 2010

Forget Yourself

I've not been a great place the last two weeks. I've given up on my healthy eating about 1/2-3/4 the time, and on the exercise. I've been overly emotional, a little hormonal, and 100% selfish. I've focused on me me me and allowed myself to be swallowed up by the heaviness of my feelings. Things happened, and things were said that hurt me and frustrated me, and rather than processing those and letting them go, I let them send me into a tailspin of pain, doubt, anger, and a lot of eating. This weekend I've been doing a lot of thinking on how I can overcome this and move forward. Although I've lost some of my momentum of good things in my life, I haven't lost it all - and I don't want to. As I was surfing my usual blogs, I came across Dawne's post from It's My Time. It broke my heart and gave me a huge wake up call that my life is easy. I mean really, I do not have much I should be complaining about. That's not to say that I don't have real trials in my life. I do. Or that my feelings don't matter. They do. But the difference is that I'm allowing them to take over and hurt myself, and those around me - and that is not okay. The only thing that dwelling over these things has done, is make it ten times worse, then it really is. Nothing good ever comes from dwelling.

So..... It's time to move on. I've said my prayer, asked that these hurt feelings be taken and that I'll be able to do what I need to, to be able to get past this. I have to be honest, I'm at a very low point in my health journey. I can feel the difference of eating bad for two weeks, and it will be a challenge to get back to where I was. But I will do it.

As I work my way back, I plan to focus outward on others. Serving those that I love, serving people I don't know, and doing what I can to make this world a better place. I think too often, I focus on me and that has got to stop. I think the Lord knows that and has been trying to open my eyes. Finally, they are open. And we'll see what the future brings!



Mom to the Fourth Power said...

I think that is MY biggest hurdle in life is to MOVE ON and STOP DWELLING on my sorrows, set backs or pains. Like you said, nothing good comes from dwelling, and it actually keeps us focussed on ourselves and not seeing those around us we can serve. This is my constant battle too, but seeing what you need to work on is the first step to changing. So GOOD for you to see that and I'm sure you WILL make those changes needed. :)


Lesia said...

If it helps at all, I LOVE YOU! And I think you are AWESOME! I have missed you. I am concerned about you. And lastly I am HERE for you:)

Joy said...

Sam, I think you are AWESOME. I am sad you are going through this stuff. But I know you will persevere!! You've got what it takes. You are going to make it to your goals and you will accomplish much in this life. You are much loved!!! Have a great day!! Hugs!

:Deliciously Healthy said...

"Put all frustrations, hurt feelings, and grumblings into the perspective of your eternal hope." Elder Busche

I love this video, Advice from Elder Busche. This post made me think of it

Lucy said...

Sam, so often I read your blog and am touched by your raw honesty and amazed that we are often in such a similar place.

Thank you.

Weight loss is NO FAIRY TALE said...

Oh girl, I've been there (check my blog on the July 3rd 2010 post) don't let this setback sabotage your results. You've worked hard so work through those feeling and get back to work 110%!!!!

Happy Fun Pants said...

Hey friend! I see so much of myself in you.

First, kudos for being honest - it's SO hard to do sometimes.

I understand that you're trying to be something bigger than yourself - someone that is worthy of the gift that God gave you.

But remember that you don't have to be perfect. Last time I checked, there was only one perfect person who walked this world and I'm pretty sure people killed him.

So yes, forget yourself...but forgive yourself too.