I've not been a great place the last two weeks. I've given up on my healthy eating about 1/2-3/4 the time, and on the exercise. I've been overly emotional, a little hormonal, and 100% selfish. I've focused on me me me and allowed myself to be swallowed up by the heaviness of my feelings. Things happened, and things were said that hurt me and frustrated me, and rather than processing those and letting them go, I let them send me into a tailspin of pain, doubt, anger, and a lot of eating. This weekend I've been doing a lot of thinking on how I can overcome this and move forward. Although I've lost some of my momentum of good things in my life, I haven't lost it all - and I don't want to. As I was surfing my usual blogs, I came across Dawne's post from It's My Time. It broke my heart and gave me a huge wake up call that my life is easy. I mean really, I do not have much I should be complaining about. That's not to say that I don't have real trials in my life. I do. Or that my feelings don't matter. They do. But the difference is that I'm allowing them to take over and hurt myself, and those around me - and that is not okay. The only thing that dwelling over these things has done, is make it ten times worse, then it really is. Nothing good ever comes from dwelling.
So..... It's time to move on. I've said my prayer, asked that these hurt feelings be taken and that I'll be able to do what I need to, to be able to get past this. I have to be honest, I'm at a very low point in my health journey. I can feel the difference of eating bad for two weeks, and it will be a challenge to get back to where I was. But I will do it.
As I work my way back, I plan to focus outward on others. Serving those that I love, serving people I don't know, and doing what I can to make this world a better place. I think too often, I focus on me and that has got to stop. I think the Lord knows that and has been trying to open my eyes. Finally, they are open. And we'll see what the future brings!