Thursday, July 8, 2010

A-ha Moments, a Roller Coaster Ride, and a Case of the Toots!

This morning I took my measurements. I haven’t done that in a REALLY long time, as in years. I didn’t even do it when I began my journey this year. But I found some old ones where I was about 10lbs less then my heaviest point, so I’ll just go off of those. If I measured correctly this morning, then I have lost 29.5 inches! Whew! I’m not positive about 10 of those, because of not knowing if I’m measuring in the same place on my legs as I did before. But still… I think that’s pretty awesome! :D

I was looking at myself in the mirror and pinpointing all the places I can tell have changed. I can see a lot of change. When I hit my 15lb short term goal I’ll post a side by side. I was thinking about people in my life and wondering “Do they see the difference”? I know Mike and my Mom do, because they always tell me (thank you!). But I was wondering about other people. And then something dawned on me. It’s okay that they don’t. Not because I don’t need the validation (which I don’t!) or the encouragement (which I like!), but because it made me realize that people aren’t watching as much as we think they are. I don’t know about you, but for me, when I was at my heaviest, I always felt like people were watching me and judging me. Judging me for how my clothes fit, or how much food I was eating. But now I realize, no one was watching. No one cared, except maybe those closest to me. But seriously, beyond that, no one cares. And if they do, so what! It was just a really big “a-ha” moment for me because I’ve always been so concerned about what others think!

So last night was… a roller coaster ride! I got off work feeling good. I had accomplished a lot during the day and it was a good day! We moved desks (which we do quarterly) and I just love that! I love change! On my way home I stopped at the grocery store, which I love to do. I know, I’m weird, but I love to grocery shop. I should start a service, as I know a lot of people hate it. Mike called and told me that all of the ice in the freezer had melted. Our ice cream (yes, I eat ice cream) has been really soft lately, but I just didn’t think anything of it. Well… by the time I got home it was apparent our refrigerator was toast. It came with the house we bought last Aug, and is probably 7-10 years old. We were planning to replace it at some point anyway, but… not last night! We tinkered with the idea of just getting it fixed, but really, why put money (and who knows how much!) into something we wanted to replace anyway? So… we bought a new fridge. Packed our food up into a cooler this morning, and will get it today. We found a great deal and a fridge that meets all our needs and wants. Pics to come soon! After that, we ran to Costco and then came home and decided to go for a run.

Willow and I jogged my entire little 2 mile trail!!! Woot Woot!!! It was so awesome. I’ve noticed that my breathing is getting easier and I don’t have to focus on it so much. And I didn’t have to go “I’m going to run to that tree, and then that tree, or that tree”. I just jogged and thought about things, and it was great. AND, Willow only barked at one person, and that was because he came around a corner and startled her. That is a big improvement!!! I know you’re probably sick of me tooting my own horn, but as someone somewhere said, if you don’t do it, who will?! :D

Toot your horn – what did you do GREAT today or yesterday???



Tricia said...

great job on the run!

karen said...

You definitely deserve to toot!!! So far today has been pretty much toot-free here ... but it's still early :)

Lesia said...

Sam you are awesome. I never look at it as a toot. Sorry about your fridge but happy you found one you like. I might be interested in hiring you to go shopping for us. I am serious too. I often give my mom my bank card and tell her to go get whatever she wants. But she gets things that are not so healthy. Anyway Clay does the shopping and I am always trying to lighten his load. I will see you tonight at the meeting. Congrats on the run

Kimberly said...

Toot away, Girl, toot away!

:Deliciously Healthy said...

You go girl!! ;)

When I was at my heaviest, i thought everyone was watching me too... now i realize they totally weren't!

ladyofthehouse said...

It's good to make note of your accomplishments - it helps you to keep track of what is working. And besides, that's one of the great things about blogging. Sharing our great moments and applauding eachother and then cheering eachother on when we need that extra push.
Great job!!

diane :)

Vaia said...

Love your energy and enthusiasm!! I also do the trick of I'll just keep going until the next tree, or the next blue car, or until I finish Ha!

Traci said...

Congrats on those awesome measurements!! Great job! I know what you mean about people not noticing. Sometimes I wish particular people would say something but it really doesn't matter. Now that I have lost 64 a lot more people I didn't realized noticed are commenting. It's nice but reminds me how far I still have to go at the same time. Bummer about having to replace the fridge. We have had to replace every major appliance in this house except for the fridge so I'm sure it's the next to go. I just hope it holds out for a time in our lives when we can afford it more.
Awesome run! I did a 6 mile run yesterday with someone who runs faster than me and I was able to do ok. The only breathing probs were on the major street with all of that smog from the cars. Once we were going down hill/straight I felt like I could keep running forever.

Mom to the Fourth Power said...

Amazing amount of inches lose! Really good job! I am learning what you're saying about people not noticing when you lose weight... because they aren't paying attention to details... it doesn't encompass their thoughts like it does mine! But it's nice when those closest to us notice. :)

How nice to get a new fridge!


Once Upon A Dieter said...

Heya! Letting you know the check-in for Week 5 of Summer Slimmin' is at my blog due to Z having computer issues:

Happy week to you! AND KEEP TOOTING YOUR HORN, LOUDLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)

:Deliciously Healthy said...

I left you a blog award on my blog!

Joy said...

Hi my Friend!!! I can only toot my horn because of your encouragement today!!! I DID NOT QUIT!! Thank you so much for your help!! I REALLY needed it today. Blessings to you my friend.

Hey you're doing awesome ~ very proud of you!!

Sending a ton of hugs your way!!!

A Journey to a new me... said...

Did you change something with your blog? My side bar with blogs I follow says you have a new post "ramblings" but when I clicked the link it came up page not found for "believe in yourself". Then when I clicked on it again it brought me to your page but doesn't show the new post?!