Sunday, January 29, 2012

Emotional Eating

"Inside some of us is a thin person struggling to get out, but they can usually be sedated with a couple of pieces of chocolate cake." 
~ Anonymous

I am reading Shrink Yourself. This is not a diet - it's about learning how to deal with why you overeat. I am an emotional overeat - I binge to avoid my feelings. I binge to avoid life. I binge to avoid people. I binge to avoid to mask feelings of inadequacy, fear of the future, and to cover up feelings of failure? Make sense? If not - then you are probably not an emotional eater. The idea of eating to numb yourself probably seems ludicrous. To those who know what I am talking about - you should check out this book! I bought mine on E-bay for like $3.

I signed up for WW last week. I am excited and frustrated about this. I had a good friend get honest with me and told me to stop looking for "what works", because I already know what works. And she was right - I do. The other reality I finally faced - I can't do this alone. I've tried for the last year - and I've floundered for the last year. So I signed up.  I'm a bit apprehensive about going to my regular meeting that I used to go to. I think my old leader probably hates is exasperated with me. I had lost 45lbs the last time I saw her. And I just stopped going. I know that's silly - she probably doesn't even care. But... I'm still nervous. I'll let you know how that goes. :) I'm frustrated to start again, because... I'm starting again. At the beginning - and that kind of sucks. Oh well... it is what it is, and I've done what I've done. Onward!

I did okay for breakfast and lunch every day this week - but I have really struggled at night! That is when all my emotional eating happens and even though I really want to eat healthy I can't seem to conquer these demons. I remembered this book and thought maybe it's time to revisit it for some assistance in dealing with my emotional eating. 

This isn't going to go away over night. But it feels good to be doing something about it. It's a start. :D


timothy said...

i agree you can't succeed if you never start!
not that it has anything to do with anything but the quote reminds me of abfab edina is on yet another diet and is upset and screaming at everyone that no one understands there's a thin person inside her trying to get out
to which her mother smiling ever so sweetly replies
"just the one dear" lol

Razzle Dazzle Berry said...

so happy to see that you are back to blogging again :) I just happened to click on over had been a while since I saw or heard anything from you?!

Oh it's a battle that we all face are not alone. I wish you all the best, everyday.

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