Bum in Blogland

Who is the bum you ask? Actually... you probably don't need to ask! I have not been really feeling like blogging. I haven't been posting as you can tell, and I haven't been leaving comments. Sorry. I read lots of blogs though, and am supporting you in my heart! Life has changed quite a bit for me recently, and I'm adjusting. I honestly don't know what that means for my blog at this point. But... I'm not letting it go. Just slowin' down a little.

Mike and I have been talking alot about getting out of debt. We've decided to make it happen and make it our main focus for next year. So we are getting started early. We'll be following Dave Ramsey's Total Money Makeover. I'm pretty excited! We've already saved our $1,000 emergency fund, and paid off two debts. So right now we are trying to not spend money as often as possible and to increase our income. Luckily, my new job has a LOT of overtime available, as does Mike's. So as often as I can, I'll be working between 10-20 hours of OT a week. So between that and a couple of other projects I'm not ready to share yet (but I will), I"m going to be really busy! I'll try to get one or two posts in, but we'll see. I will still be working on making peace with food next year, but it won't be my only focus. So I'll be talking about a lot more varied things. I'm excited about that too! While blogging about my weight loss has been amazing, I'm excited for the same accountability in our financial world as well. Don't know that I'll be sharing numbers, but I want to take whoever wants to read on this journey as well.

So... I'm still kind of in the same funk I've been in for the last month. I'm still trying to pay attention to my body signals, but it's proving much more difficult then it was in the beginning. But then... that's life right? Everything is easy in the beginning. A friend at work shared a quote with me today: "Everything works, and nothing doesn't". It's so true! No matter what diet or budget or financial plan or whatever you choose - if you actually stick to it and work it, it will work.

I truly, deep down in my gut, know that this will work (for me). That this is the means to the end. No not the end, to the journey (for me). I have faith in myself that I can be trusted with food, that I do not need to/have to depend on it emotionally, and that I can eat in a way that my body will go to it's natural weight - be that whatever it is. I just have to stay the course. I just have to pay attention and not give in to old habits. Just because I'm not "dieting" in the traditional sense, it is still work. It's just a different kind of work. And I keep telling myself that it took 15 years to get here, it's not going to change in a month. Patience. Patience. Patience! (Who has time for patience anyway?!) My dear friend Susan once told me that patience is the art of hiding your impatience! So I need to work on that art a little more! :)

So I think what I've decided to do is break down the steps into weeks. There are 10 steps to Intuitive Eating. So each week I will focus on one step. Of course I'll still try and do the others, but I'll give particular attention to that step. I hope this will keep me engaged, on target, and in tune. I am also going to start the 30 day shred. That's right, I'm giving up my non-plan plan for a... plan. :) My running has, unfortunately been non-existent. And with my schedule being the way it is going to be... I just don't know when I'll get to run. Because the only time I'll have is at night or early in the morning. Which would be fine - except for the fact that it's dark. I've considered running at lunch, but there isn't a shower at work, and 9 times out 10 I work through my lunch for the OT. Soo... I can do a 20 min workout in my home anytime. So that's what I'm going to do. And then I'll go for a jog on Saturdays, and hope it's enough to have me ready for my 10K in Moab.

I get so tired sitting all day, I know it's just sitting. But it just makes you lethargic. So I will be following this workout plan to 1. Give me Energy! 2. Help my day feel accomplished and help me feel good about myself. 3. Help prepare me for my 10K. 4. Tone my body. And 5. Yes, burn calories. I finally admitted to myself that I do want to do that. Although, I am happy to say it really is number 5 on the list and will not be my number one reason for working out. So the "plan" will be to do the shred Mon-Fri and a run each Saturday. I have five Saturdays until the 10K. So for the first three I will do a four mile jog. The 4th one I will do a 5 mile jog. And the 5th one I'll do a 6.2 mile jog. Whew!!! That's heavy, but I'm excited for the challenge!

As I was just proofing my post, I realized I talk a lot about plans. I change my mind a lot this year. That's just part of who I am I think. But here's the thing, even though I have changed my mind quite a bit this year, and I've had to make adjustments. For once, I've stuck to my determination to get healthy. I've had my down times, and my up times. But I haven't quit! And regardless of what the scale says at the end of the year, I did it. I stayed true and for that I am happy! With that said, I am committing myself to these two plans. The 30 day shred, and the 10 week focus thingy (I'll have to come up with a name :D). Just had to say it (or type it) out loud for myself, and for the accountability. 

I hope all my readers are doing good! I know each of us are working on different plans, different journey's, different diets or non-diets, etc. Regardless of what your doing, stay strong, be true to yourself, and most of all - LOVE yourself!!!! I know I sure love you!!!