Going back to move forward

Well I think I've come up with what I want to do. Over the last few weeks I've really considered a lot of different options. Different diet plans, workout plans, non-workout plans, non-diet plans, gastric by pass, prescription medication, and so on and so on. Last night as I sat here typing up that post I started thinking about the year 2010. That was a good year for me. I lost 45lbs. I was running all the time, felt so great about myself, and my health. I blogged 167 times about my life. While all of these may have been about me, it was in a good way. It was taking care of myself so that I could be a better wife, daughter, and friend. 

I'm finding that with our schedule the way it is, and with adding the title of mommy - I very rarely am finding any time for anything that... fills up my cup. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE being a mom! And I love being a wife! These two things bring me so much joy and do fill up my cup. But they also drain it too sometimes. It feels like more often than not I run toward the empty side. And that is to no one's benefit.

So I've decided to make this simple. I'm going to go back to what I was doing - that was WORKING. Duh. Sometimes we just make things so difficult for ourselves. I don't plan to make a million changes all at once - because I know what will happen if I do that. But at some point over the next year, I want to work all of these changes into my life. 

These three will start happening this coming week:

*Sign up for WW and attend a weekly meeting.

*Start going on a daily 1 mile walk. This is as much for the exercise, as just the opportunity for Emma and I to get out of the house, enjoy sunshine, and hopefully have nice chats with friends that may join us.

*Create a weekly meal plan, make a grocery list, and go shopping. (This may sound difficult - but I actually used to LOVE doing this)

To be added in as I go:

*Work up to blogging several times a week again. I have a feeling my posts will be a lot shorter than they used to be (then again, maybe not. hahaha I do have a lot to say). I found so much value in sharing my feelings, frustrations, and successes. It was very therapeutic and I think it had a lot to do with my success.

*Walk/jog a 5k end of May or beginning of June and a 10K in Moab in Dec. 

*Go hiking at least once a week. My feet need to build up some strength again before I will start doing this. I hope to start in May.

*Move from walking back into jogging. At my peak, I was able to jog 2.5 miles straight. I started that year just by walking. Then increasing my walking distance. Then starting to jog intermittently, from tree to tree. And then slowly increasing the distances I was jogging. I'm going to do the same thing this summer. 

*Riding my bike several times a week. I got a road bike for Christmas, but I've only been able to ride it a few times. The biggest problem is that when I sit on it, I can't breath because my weight pushes into my ribs. I think I'm going to have to drop a little weight first, but I'll keep trying it and soon hope to be riding it on constant basis.

I'm sure I'll think of more things along the way, but that's the immediate plan.

Yes, this is about weight loss. But more than that, it's about life changes. I want to be healthy, so that I can teach my children how to be healthy. I want to have self esteem so that I can be an example for Emma. I want to live life to it's fullest - by enjoying good food, fun family activities, and helping others. I want to get to the end of my life and have much to show for it. There are many habits and things in my life that I want to let go of. The great thing is that every day is a new day to be the person I want to be. I don't have to wait to be happy "when"... I start right now to enjoy my life as it is! And live in a way that will make tomorrow a great day too!